I guess it was mainly my fault that i cried. My pride couldnt take judgement, especially from those who i thought are my friends. Or at least were, since i think i dont think i'll be able to face them now.
But i think my feelings were a tad little too explosive, my apologies. Lucky for those who talked me through this. But currently i feel rather stupidified ?
Anyway this incident would make me feel more motivated to be a better person, So thanks guys. haha. And yes i have to try my best to tame my egoistic-(secretly thinking that i am cute when i am not this kind of things) and hot temper(being super sensitive and rage at the smallest things). If you did not know, im really kind of a extreme mood person. can be super friendly funny optimistic and bhb at times. but now i just feel really tiny, insecure, terrible, horrible, and with many negative thoughts feeling my head.
I dont think i'll be updating my twitter/ facebook for awhile. and my handphone currently is out of service so pardon me if i did not reply ur msges or smth. Was not really looking forward to the overseas trip my mom forced me to go from thurs to mon, but after tonight, i think it would be great, some time alone for me to sort out my thoughts and hopefully return to singapore all to be a better person. so bonvoyage for me? I shall truthfully express that i hope my presence would be missed in this timeframe.
ohwells, I think when im in the thinking mood my english is rather professional i must say. -suddenly burst out laughing- haha. I have gave up on many things. My dream, my goal for this year etc, i am too tired. I cant be the only one trying can i? I shall just leave things to fate and how much the others appreciate me. good night.
recently felt that my complexion wasnt that good, in other words, degraded, so stopped putting makeup for quite a number of days. even ytd headed out with quite light makeup :) no bbcream.
xoxo from eugeniania. haha. i look happier yesterday..
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